Monday, January 2, 2012

Curhat ekstra hari ini (mungpung masih hari ini belum besok)

oke, mari kita telaah sumber kelelahan emosi si saiia hari ini.

pertama, sepagian ceting sama emak which makes me missed her quite badly (i guess.)
kedua, the drama I have to go through every time we are going out. come on guys, be more kind to your mommy here! :'(
ketiga, tragedi ga jadi nuker jas ujan padahal udah sampe JP dan masih juga harus nunggu lama which is wasting time & energy (not to mention the head-splitting-heat and the budak rewel)
keempat, the not funny joke at a friend's house. hell-oooo! gw tuh DISURUH ngomong, bukan gw yg MINTA ngomong, trus jikalau ketika lg cape itu disuruh ngomong dan tiba2 dicela adalah suatu kejadian yang membuat tangan pengen nabok dan hati jadi sakit. have some respect man.
kelima, ketemu lagi sama orang yang menyebalkan, setelah sekian lama, setelah gw kira sudah ga akan ketemu lagi sama orang itu (such wishful thinking it turned out!) membuat teringat insiden jaman dulu di rumah lama dan membuka kekesalan lama. aarrgghhh!
keenam, dua orang teman (dua, krn mereka suami istri) hendak pindah ke tempat baru di negeri yang sangat jauh dari sini dan tadi adalah saat2 perpisahan dgn mereka. gosh, ga kebayang pergi ke tempat yg jauh sekali dari rumah dan harus mengurus segalanya sendiri (my concern is more for the wife). i hope they had a great time and experience and money and knowledge and new friends (of course), out there at the scandinavian land. i don't know why i feel so sad. i've known them for only a short period of time, for about a year or so although they're my husband's friends in campus. but to me they feel more like a family, like a brother and sister for me. and their two little girls are like my own girls. they're both cute and pretty and warm to me. and I secretly wanting the younger girl for my son, hahaha! she's only 1! what the hell was i thinking... anyway, this makes me feel better. writing about the things that upsetting me i mean.

oh and 1 more thing, my dearest hubby made me upset too by throwing things i meant for keeping (not the first time!!)

oh, there's another thing: i can't find raissa's purple bib. it's new and i like that bib and it's quite expensive and it's upsetting when u can't find the things that u like when u want it. *sigh*

Curhat hari ini

OK. I'll say it here, i'll say it loud and clear:
IT'S A @$#@ING TIRING DAY!

i'm tired, emotionally and physically. And sometimes i wish i could be handling a situation better but apparently i couldn't.
oh damn, now i'm crying.

feels like jumping into an airplane and take off to somewhere far away, some place without having to meet anyone i knew.
I guess i shouldn't go out too much and tired myself out.

oh great, now i'm babbling, but who cares.

blah! X(

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

mumet

apa itu artinya mumet? apakah kata mumet ada dalam kbbi alias kamus besar bahasa inggris? entahlah.
yang pasti sekarang saya sedang mumet. whatever that means!
rasanya kesal sekali ketika usaha yang sudah dilakukan lalu mental begitu saja.
yea yea yea, siapapun yang berkomentar kalau tidak ada usaha yang sia2 mending nyingkah aja deh dari sini. i felt like i have done my best. or haven't i?
maybe i'm not too good in this motherhood business, and darn it is too late to back down so hopefully there'll be times to fix things up and hope everything will be better tomorrow.

wait a minute... it is already tomorrow!
and things haven't look brighter in my perspective. wait, maybe that' because i don't wear any glasses. hummm...

errrrr... what're we talkin' 'bout????

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

it's been a year (curhat masalah wanita)

setahun penuh tanpa 'tamu' bulanan.
lupa, dulu waktu zee umur berapa ya si 'tamu' br dtg lg? hmm hmm...
setaun atau 13 bulan ya?
duh lupa lg. sementara yg lain udah pd dapet lg dlm waktu bbrp bln aja (ato bahkan langsung setelah nifas).
hmm hmm... agak2 khawatir nih. i don't know anyone who doesn't get her period as long as i am after giving birth. apa perlu ke dokter??
hmm.. hmm...

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

cerita cinta

jadi ceritanya udah lama nih ga buka blog, iseng2 blogwalking ke tempat suami sayah abi taufik rahman. setelah baca2, ternyata ada satu post bertanggal setahun yg lalu (tepat setahun yg lalu) yang beliau tulis dan membuat saya berkaca-kaca, eh boong ding, sampe nangis cirambay malah!

kalo penasaran silakan saja baca tulisan beliau tertanggal 25 agustus 2009.
ah abwi, tidak kusangka pria yg kadang garing namun lebih sering pendiam itu sangat cinta sama istrinya (iiaitu saiiah!) hahaha...
hihihi...
jd kemalu-maluan ini istrinya :">

baru aja

nah sekarang akhirnya punya blog! euleuh, kmn wae nya?
masalahnya suka bingung gt klo mo nulis mending dmn. ah alesan aja biar ga nulis.
selamat berkenalan blog, semoga hubungan ini lancar dan langgeng adanya.

siap2 aja kamu disampahin sama segala sesuatu tentang atti.
hahaha...!